Sorry that you lost your wife, that would of been very hard!
I can recommend that you go for it!! I got my licence in October and have a farm strip, hangar etc and have logged a bit over 70 hrs now and loving every minute of it. It is great to just go for a fly whenever I want especially now in lockdown mode, just open the hangar, do preflight and go. Sometimes it is just a heap of circuits and the other day it was to find the source of smoke as we are still a bit nervous of fires but it was just a farmer burning windrows 20nm away.
I have a Savannah S and it is great, mostly can land in 100m but my strip is 480m with high trees one end.
Have fun,
Dean.