Welcome to the nervous pilots club, you are not alone I have the same problem, I started flying around ten years ago. I purchased my own plane but prefer to fly with another pilot or passenger.
I have been on about fore or five flights of one or two hours,tho most of the time just short half hour flights to the training area and back
Some times changing my mind after climb out and only doing the one circuit.
I have just had a three month break from flying so I am about to try again with instructor and to
There are a lot of folk that say you would never get me up in one of those things, or if they ever did never ever want to do it again
Us nervous pilots are some who are in-between