I never had a boyhood dream of flying, it never crossed my mind. I never built models or visited airfields. I was horse mad. Sad to admit that as a teenager, I had picture of racehorses on my bedroom walls instead of girls.
I took my first commercial flight at age 28 from Launceston to Flinders Island and was terrified when the plane got caught in what I now think was perhaps a rotor. As we were dropping from the sky, a young girl a couple of seats in front of me, floated up to the ceiling and was pinned there until we came out of it. From then on flying terrified me and I would get a shiver up my spine just looking up at a passing plane.
I would rather drive 4 days to Darwin rather than endure the 4 hour flight, and would get sozzled in the bar before boarding an international flight. They were long journeys of abject misery and fear, even though I had read all about it being the safest form of mass transport. For at least a couple of weeks before a commercial flight, I would be getting more anxious, cold sweats and sleepless nights. My wife and friends would enjoy a great laugh at my expense, but it was just sickeningly horrible.
After telling my son of having a private panic attack on a flight to Singapore, he bought me a TIF for my 50th birthday. His reasoning was that if I had some understanding of flying, maybe my fear would diminish a little.
I nearly had a heart attack during the TIF, I never knew planes were that small, I felt as if the turbulence was going to throw us out of the sky. But, something must have clicked in the back of my mind. My wife was astonished a few weeks later when I
said I wanted to go for another TIF, now that I knew what to expect. The CFI suggested I do 6 weeks of lessons and study the theory book to learn more.
I was hooked after three weeks, got my PPL within eleven months, then my RA pilots certificate, and bought a half share in a J230.
One of the most satisfying days of my life, was taking my son who caused this strange addiction, up for a flight.
I went flying today, the conditions were not perfect, gusty, lumpy and bumpy. I flew down to Brooklands Park and had coffee with another couple of flyers, then flew over flyerme's place at Sherlock just for fun.
Flying back to Murray Bridge at 4,500' and still getting tossed around quite heavily, I caught myself literally laughing out loud to think of how far I have come. I had a huge smile for the rest of the day. I now feel relaxed and de-stressed.
When I am flying, I am just flying and I love it.
I read all of your posts with a bit of envy, you guys have made your childhood dreams come true. From being starry eyed kids building models and looking at planes, to becoming pilots, plane owners and builders. That must be such a special feeling, especially if it has taken many years to achieve it. I hope you take some time on every flight to think of how you got there and give yourself a pat on the back.
For me, every flight is very special. More than just mastery over my demons, but a true joy of being in the air and looking down on the world. I now can't imagine a time in my life when I won't be flying.